(I started this post a couple of weeks ago, so some of it is old news...)We had far too much excitement around here last week. And it all started out with a night of Wii. We went to our friends' place for the evening, an adults only Wii night get-together (that's somewhat of a novelty for us, so we were quite excited) and I was hoping that the worst thing that would happen that week would be that I would need Wii tennis lessons. My friend, Jeannie, by the way, is an absolute star at all things Wii, but we all had fun basking in her boxing/baseball/tennis glory. Anyway, enough about Wii, as fun as it was...
We came home that night late-ish, drove the babysitter home and at 1:30am heard a bang bang CRASH! At first we thought it was just Luke crashing around in his bed as he sometimes does, but the shattered glass sort of nullified that thought. Julio went into the living room and I creeped behind him and low and behold, what did we find but a massive rock that had made it's way through our living room window. I called 911 before actually going into the room, thinking for sure we were getting robbed, and had to emphasize the fact that we had small children in the house thinking that would somehow evoke more pity, I guess. In the end, because the kids, or whoever it was, ran off, we never even got a visit from the police. What we did get was 2 hours of vacuuming to try and pick up every little piece of shattered glass. What a mess. And don't even get Julio started on our insurance claim...it happened on a Friday night and they told us no one would be in until Monday to help us. Nice. What if our house burned down? Anyway, that's all sorted out now and we have a really pathetic estimate for fixing our window, so this will be a lovely financial set back for us. So much cheery news. On to the next fiasco.
Samuel had a fever, starting out around Sunday and on Monday we started noticing that he was twitching a lot as well. By Tuesday it had still not gone away (the fever and the twitching) so after calling his doctor I went with the boys to Children's Emergency. I was crying on the way, nervous about all this twitching, and from the backseat I all of a sudden heard, "I like happy moms. They're great." Subtle. That did actually cheer me up a bit on the drive down. So, in the ER he had a couple of actual seizures (so scary!) but they were not long lived so that was a positive. After all of his shenanigans (I love that word) the neurologist decided it'd be best to observe him for the night as he was still having these other weird twitches (different from the actual seizure he had that was probably related to the fever). He had an EEG the next morning which showed some midline abnormalities, but the neurologist wasn't hugely worried. We stayed another night to observe these twitches, although I felt ridiculous because he would do it all the time when I was alone with him but as soon as I got a nurse to check it out he'd just beam and smile and seem completely fine. Since then he's been getting a lot better, with fewer and fewer twitches and mostly happy and content. It was sure eye opening being in the ward for a few days though. Here's a little snapshot of what I saw:
Mother of 4, youngest son recovering from heart surgery done in Montreal, seemingly doing quite well for a 2 month old. I can't imagine how that would've all played out with the other 3 kids though!
Nurses talking at the nurses station, asking each other how long this one mom stayed to visit her baby this time. The consensus was maybe 5 minutes or so. Later I saw this same mom as she was leaving from a visit to her baby boy. The nurses were calling after her saying, "try not to be much more than twenty minutes" to which she just continued walking and didn't reply. I heard that baby boy cry a lot and was so sad that his mom didn't stay with him. That was the one and only time I saw his mom in the two days I was there. I just can't imagine.
Fun, spirited teenaged-girl, probably around 15 but looked like a super slim 12-year-old and quite sickly. She was talking on the phone with a boy one night for about a 1/2 hour, about video games and school and annoying subs and after she hung up the phone, had a conversation with a nurse about getting hooked up to her machine, some sort of a feeding scenario. I was just so struck with how much she was trying to lead a normal, teenaged life even though her life was much more complicated than most teenagers.
It was a tough stay, in some ways, and I came out of it feeling like I had no clue what so many people have to deal with all the time. I'm so glad major illness is not a part of my daily life and am so thankful that Samuel has been doing so well since. It's been over 2 weeks since our hospital stay and he's pretty much back to his smiley, funny self. I still feel like I observe him a lot and analyze his every move quite a bit, but even that is dwindling which is a positive sign. All in all I have to say that I experienced a new level of God's grace and a feeling of helplessness, but feeling like I was in good hands being in His hands. I am more and more convinced of prayer ever since, not necessarily for the outcome we want, but to draw us closer to God. Not to be morbid, but in the last while I've thought a lot more about death and heaven and I am realizing something about prayer and God. We pray so much for health and physical wholeness and earthly security when really, every single person's ultimate end is death and, consequently, no earthly security and no longevity in terms of health. So I wonder if it's almost humorous to God that we pray so much about what's a blip, and not so much (or maybe that's just me) about what is forever. In this journey of mine, I'm starting to pray more to cling to what's forever as opposed to what is not, but it doesn't come easily. I for sure want to see my kids get older and stay healthy and be with Julio until we're grandparents on a porch somewhere looking at a sunset. But more than that (I say it, not sure if I always believe it) I want to know God and feel His security and His rest. These are a lot of deep thoughts for a Saturday afternoon, I think I'll leave it there for now and share a few more pictures!
Bath-time! I absolulely LOVE that they can bathe together now, they are so cute to watch splash around together.
An afternoon at the zoo. The animals were the lowest of Luke and the other kids' priority, playing on the grass and on the play structures were much more fun.Samuel chilling out in his stroller, eating, as we walked around the zoo. As long as the food kept coming, he was fine!
What Luke does every day now that it's nicer out. It's hard to drag him inside ever, and I don't even want to really as I remember spending hours outside as a kid and love seeing him so content out there. Thank goodness for spring, I honestly don't know what we did all winter!
Our eventful week is a few weeks in the past now, and life has since consisted mostly of walks to the park, hanging out outside and enjoying the first few weeks of spring. There was a blip of snow and cold in there for a week and I thought I'd lose my mind. But thankfully it's been warmer the last few days and we are back outside where we belong. So be prepared for more outside pictures, as long as I can remember to bring my camera...